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[Mar. 11th, 2006|02:38 pm] |
deleted my myspace
im going to die
its beautiful out
im going outside
thank you
good night |
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| I <3 Moby |
[Jan. 12th, 2006|07:45 pm] |
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| |  blah | ] |
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| | Run On- Moby...oOoOoOoOoOo | ] |
experts are now predicting that the war in iraq could end up costing the u.s more than two trillion dollars.
to look at it in numeric form:
$2,000,000,000,000.00
it's just so depressing. what else could've been done with that money?
health care for most americans?
housing?
education?
new police and fire stations?
the bush administration will go down as the worst and most incompetent presidential administration in the history of the united states.
-moby
(Journal entry from his website...don't ask why I was on it, one of my whims of the week)
I'm really starting to like this moby. I hope u all learn from this fello. I'm really bored. So i'm thinkin i'm gonna go find this Teany place. It's moby's tea shop...it's in Manhattan...cooool. If u wanna come i'll totally go. I feel like doing something and this feels SO me...so if u like tea and health food...(aka trader joes YEA BABY), then get ur ass on a train and we'll go to Teany. WOO HOOO!!!!! OoOoOoOoOoOoO!!! I know of some really great tea shops on the east side!!! Oh i'm TOTALLY gonna have a tea outting...ok. Now that it's been officially documented i'll shut up.
Ha ha i'm such a loser.
uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugh bored |
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| Ka-Kee |
[Dec. 9th, 2005|09:36 pm] |
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| |  IDK I just liked the smiley... | ] |
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| | My Blanket and Me-You're a Good Man Charlie Brown | ] |
Yeppa....when in doubt adopt a virtual pet! I'm so ashamed I actually had to ASKL how to spell falafel.....ha ha. WOW I really want falafel right now...I'm in the middle of choreagraphing a stupid fucking number for "You're a Good Man Charlie Brown"....GOD I HATE THAT SHOW....and for those of you who celebrate....
Happy Beethoven's Day!!!
Help.....me.....please..... :( |
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| YO MOMMA |
[Nov. 10th, 2005|09:56 pm] |
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| |  INSPIRED~!~!~!~ | ] |
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| | Barbra Streisand-Gotta MOVE!!!!!! | ] |
AAAAAWWWWWW!!!! yea i'm pretty tired of the depressed entries o here's my son...... |
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| This better end soon...it's getting really bad....oh somebody help me!!!!! |
[Oct. 9th, 2005|11:33 pm] |
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| |  indifferent to....EVERYTHING | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | What would YOU be listening to? | ] |
Wow....I don't feel like complete shit, as of these past 5 and a half seconds. At least, not like completely ALONE shit....Lately i've been on some sort of an auto-pilot, a possible defense mechinism of some sort...I have completely lost myself. I can't think anymore. I can't apply myself to anything. I just...don't care anymore. When i'm speaking I can barely keep track of what I say, when i'm thinking about my usual bullshit i'm not even feeling anything....otherwise I just can't recognize what I might be feeling if anything at all. As if there's a passion that I once had that is now missing. I mean, the way that I communicate with the world and even the way I see things...it's as if it has completely lost life. Anyway, I just read that my cousin whom I never really get to see is in the same if not similar situation. I just HAVE to find something that I actually ENJOY again and bring it back into my life. Otherwise I will continue to spiral downward and that will NOT be a pretty sight! I haven't felt the energy of a stage, in what feels like an eternity. I want so badly what I can barely recall!!! ugh.... Now THAT contradicts itself AND confounds the rest of you who (god help you) might be reading this.....well, as long as I understand it...I guess. I'm so strange. ARG!!! I don't want to have to resort to drugs.....(as in anti-depressents you dirty dirty thing), I mean I don't know if this is even the proper situation for them...am I depressed??? I don't even know...all I know is that I am ANYTHING but happy. |
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| HighSchool...Why don't ya just guess! |
[Oct. 8th, 2005|03:59 pm] |
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| |  rainy | ] |
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| | Starman-David Bowie (Ziggy Stardust) | ] |
As of right now I feel as though my head is climbing farther and farther up my own ass. It's terrible. I've managed to adapt and isolate myself from the shit that goes around with "friends and cliques"...I don't know why but lately it's actually been bothering me...it ACTUALLY influences my day!!! I don't know, maybe i've been more vulnerable lately but i'm certainly not the secure confident bitch that i've been in the past. I just don't understand, i've managed to convince myself that it shouldn't affect me but although as usual i'm BARELY if not completely uninvolved with the situation(s), it DOES affect me. I guess i'm at a loss of things to think about. UGH I DON'T KNOOOOW!!! Somebody help me... Just let me know if you've got any good karaoke songs...maybe that could help. I just need my usual outlet to distract me from this pointless temporary shitty life i've been leading. The outlet: you should know!!! (Subliminally, waitressing a manhattan restaurant) Ha ha...yeah....I need to be singing again...i hate this.....AUTOPILOT BIG TIME!!! where am I? do i even care? what am i saying? I DON'T KNOOOOOW!!! (A consistent theme in this sad little entry) |
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| vagasil.... |
[Oct. 3rd, 2005|04:45 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | um what's this? what's this??? | ] |
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| |  YOU try workin in Haunted Hous | ] |
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| | Cinderella-A Dream is a Wish your Heart Makes...aaaaahhh, | ] |
Ugh......well, happy rosh hashana ya'll! i am beyond exhausted. BLA...and i gost a dinner to go to tonight..........waaaaa!!!!! poopy |
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| monkeys on a crack ship! |
[Sep. 25th, 2005|02:58 am] |
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| |  distressed | ] |
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| | Breathe Your Name | ] |
yeah.....wrote that at the end of eighth grade so it's farirly recent...LOL For you Brittany!!!! |
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| BLA BLA BLA |
[Sep. 24th, 2005|07:27 pm] |
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| |  cynical | ] |
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| | Joni Mtichell-She looks like sissy spacek | ] |
Ugh,
HELLLLLLLL...........P!I’m always ANGRY. Everyone I know is my enemy. Not because I’m some pessimistic bitch but because I only know a few people. And they all… well, they all SUCK for lack of a better word. I despise my mother already. She’s not worried that I’ll grow up to resent her because I guess she feels that she’s already doing a good enough job with those other two rodents. What does my fate matter? Empathy is at a huge loss in this narcissistic household. You would think that it is common sense to use their predictability to my advantage but ne’ I always second guess myself. After a while of constantly be contradicted you tend to fret, analyze and really reconsider where you stand in the sanity class. I certainly can’t get my head on straight in this environment that antagonizes me so!!! *dramatic music fades in* Let me OUT OF HERE! I’ve had plenty of opportunity to establish myself and god knows I’ve TRIED to take advantage of it , why not just let me escape if you have no use for me? If you care so little for me. I’m just not right. Or to put it into a better perspective, this life is not right for ME. How much longer must I continue to calice over these countless wounds on my heart. Or to be more realistic and a tad less dramatic, my confidence. I can feel myself and anything I ever actually liked about myself deteriorating. Resilience is only a good thing for so long, and then you’re just another person all together. Overcompensating for some vulnerability or insecurity with the shell of an ASSHOLE! Well gee, that’s just what I want to be when I’m a big girl. (Well…a bigger girl). I’m bored out of my mind here. I can barely contain myself and I always regret not running away as every second is wasted in this life goes by. |
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